Maybe it's because I know in 16 days, I'll never see them again. Maybe its because I don't care what they say, Not asking is definite NO, so what do I have to lose?? Maybe it's because I need to stay active. The reason; I am unsure of. What I am sure of is that lately, if I want to join into a group playing a sport, I'll initiate conversation and ask to play. When I was younger, I would lurk around, and hope that somebody would invite me to join.
I don't know how, or why I became so bold. I do know that I enjoy playing a million times more than just sitting on the sidelines and watching, so from know on, no more hoping. I will take my fate into my own hands, and play with anybody who says it's okay.
So, a heads up on my future goals, This week, a friends gonna teach me a workout routine, and I'm gonna be as active as possible. She's gonna kick my butt. On the 14th is my birthday party, and the 15th I will be doing a Ride-along with a policeman friend of mine. Late the night of the 16th, I fly out. These are the big events.
BUT... I've Got Great News... (at least to me ;)
For the longest time, as long as I can remember, I have been a size 14-18 in pant sizes (generally 16). Today I went to GAP, found AMAZING jeans, and the are a size 12!!!! like, Holy cow. I'm loving my slightly smaller legs. The muscles aren't gonna allow for ity-bity legs, but they might allow for a 10 or 8..? anyway, thats a big leap in my "Buff" journey. I'll post my workout schedule on here as soon as I find some extra time (teehee, ya right..)
Lydia S.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Fitness Journey
I have decided to get... Buff. I don't mean in that "I'm going to crush you with my bare hands" Arnold sort of way. I mean where I can be buff, and not look buff. I have been a bigger person forever, but I think part of this chapter in life will be changing that. I want to be able to do a few things (I created a list), but you may be wondering "Why Buff?"
WHY NOT.
That's the short answer. The long answer.... because I don't stand a CHANCE against my oldest brother. He could whip me easier than he could kill a fly. And I hate knowing that he could. He was doing pull-ups with 45 extra pounds attached to his skinny waist. Like, really??
GO BIG OR GO HOME!!!
I'm gonna do this next chapter in life BIG, HUGE, ENORMOUS even. Because of that I'm going to TRY and become "buff". Here's part of my list, and as the year goes, I'll let you know how I'm doing... (this is a goal for over the next YEAR, not immediately. I know it'll take a while)
- 20 Pull-ups
- 20 Chin-ups
- Bench press 150-200 pounds
- Curl 45-60 pounds
- Run 5 miles in 45 minutes
- Swim 1 mile in 30 minutes
These are a few, and I'm not gonna lie, it'll be tough and It might not happen, but I'm going BIG!!
Lydia S.
WHY NOT.
That's the short answer. The long answer.... because I don't stand a CHANCE against my oldest brother. He could whip me easier than he could kill a fly. And I hate knowing that he could. He was doing pull-ups with 45 extra pounds attached to his skinny waist. Like, really??
GO BIG OR GO HOME!!!
I'm gonna do this next chapter in life BIG, HUGE, ENORMOUS even. Because of that I'm going to TRY and become "buff". Here's part of my list, and as the year goes, I'll let you know how I'm doing... (this is a goal for over the next YEAR, not immediately. I know it'll take a while)
- 20 Pull-ups
- 20 Chin-ups
- Bench press 150-200 pounds
- Curl 45-60 pounds
- Run 5 miles in 45 minutes
- Swim 1 mile in 30 minutes
These are a few, and I'm not gonna lie, it'll be tough and It might not happen, but I'm going BIG!!
Lydia S.
Sharing of JOY
It's about 1 a.m., and I am blogging. Mainly because What I want to say will be the foggiest memory tomorrow morning. For some reason, I cannot help myself. I'm quickly becoming addicted to this blog. :/ which is not necessarily the best thing..
Because of Winn Dixie is a wonderful story. I remember reading it a long, long time ago, but I don't remember the book so well. Tonight, I re-watched the movie, and I still cried at the same spot that I did the very first time I watched this movie. There are a few main points about this movie, but tonight I want to cover three; "Litmus Lozenges" and sharing in sorrows and joys, think of others by their greatest assets instead of their mightiest faults, and never giving up.
In the movie Miss Fanny explains to Opal and a friend about her great grandfathers invention of the litmus lozenges. See, her great grandfather went off to the Civil War, and when he finally got home, everyone in his family had died, leaving him with nobody. He was all alone, and all he wanted was something sweet, so he started the "Litmus Lozenges". The Lozenges had a taste, a taste which people described as sorrow, melancholy, or sadness, and everyone would feel free to share their reason, or cause of their sadness. Miss Fanny proceeded to explain that the reason they were so popular is because of the opening they gave for people to share in their sorrows. Towards the end of the movie, Opal realizes that if there is anything more important than sharing in others sorrows, it's sharing in others joys. Throughout the movie she learned about their sorrows; whether it be a rough prison involved past, or an alcoholic one, each and EVERY person she meet was LONELY. Opal gets a wonderful idea, and creates a party in order for everyone to forget about their past, or futures, but to share in the joyous company of others.
The main characters all had a past. From being in prison, an alcoholic, or a grumpy lonely old man, to a sister who lost her brother, a girl who never had anyone, or a preacher who was left by his wife, everyone makes mistakes, or has a sad past. The important thing to ALWAYS remember is to base our opinions of others off of what we know from THEM about them. If there's a man who can play music so well the animals will listen, judge him off of that asset. If there's a woman who hung bottles from a tree in order to keep the ghosts of her past away, judge her for that strength. Not the fact that she drank all of those bottles. To often in today's society we are faced with the judging others because of their pasts instead of their strengths they are using. Granted judging is smart of somebody doesn't realize they were wrong. But.. if they realize it, and are playing on their strengths, it's time to stop judging and love them enough to share in joyous times.
When Winn Dixie ran away during the thunderstorm, and the dad's ready to give up, Opal tells him he didn't even try to look for her mom, and that all he ever does is quit. She was wrong to assume this of her dad, but he had never taken the time to prove it to her. When something would go wrong, and he thought she wasn't looking, he would just try to hide within himself. But she was looking, and when he was ready to quit, she pushed him a little bit farther. Look back on your life... How far have you come? So why, no matter how small the situation, do you think it's "okay" to give-up now???!!! You have already come so FAR! what else do you want to do in life? you ill not get anywhere by giving up, and I don't need a story to reming me of that one.
Share your sorrows AND Joy's, base opinions off of current fact from that person, nobody else, and not based off of their past either, and last but not least.. NEVER GIVE UP!!!!
Lydia S.
Because of Winn Dixie is a wonderful story. I remember reading it a long, long time ago, but I don't remember the book so well. Tonight, I re-watched the movie, and I still cried at the same spot that I did the very first time I watched this movie. There are a few main points about this movie, but tonight I want to cover three; "Litmus Lozenges" and sharing in sorrows and joys, think of others by their greatest assets instead of their mightiest faults, and never giving up.
In the movie Miss Fanny explains to Opal and a friend about her great grandfathers invention of the litmus lozenges. See, her great grandfather went off to the Civil War, and when he finally got home, everyone in his family had died, leaving him with nobody. He was all alone, and all he wanted was something sweet, so he started the "Litmus Lozenges". The Lozenges had a taste, a taste which people described as sorrow, melancholy, or sadness, and everyone would feel free to share their reason, or cause of their sadness. Miss Fanny proceeded to explain that the reason they were so popular is because of the opening they gave for people to share in their sorrows. Towards the end of the movie, Opal realizes that if there is anything more important than sharing in others sorrows, it's sharing in others joys. Throughout the movie she learned about their sorrows; whether it be a rough prison involved past, or an alcoholic one, each and EVERY person she meet was LONELY. Opal gets a wonderful idea, and creates a party in order for everyone to forget about their past, or futures, but to share in the joyous company of others.
The main characters all had a past. From being in prison, an alcoholic, or a grumpy lonely old man, to a sister who lost her brother, a girl who never had anyone, or a preacher who was left by his wife, everyone makes mistakes, or has a sad past. The important thing to ALWAYS remember is to base our opinions of others off of what we know from THEM about them. If there's a man who can play music so well the animals will listen, judge him off of that asset. If there's a woman who hung bottles from a tree in order to keep the ghosts of her past away, judge her for that strength. Not the fact that she drank all of those bottles. To often in today's society we are faced with the judging others because of their pasts instead of their strengths they are using. Granted judging is smart of somebody doesn't realize they were wrong. But.. if they realize it, and are playing on their strengths, it's time to stop judging and love them enough to share in joyous times.
When Winn Dixie ran away during the thunderstorm, and the dad's ready to give up, Opal tells him he didn't even try to look for her mom, and that all he ever does is quit. She was wrong to assume this of her dad, but he had never taken the time to prove it to her. When something would go wrong, and he thought she wasn't looking, he would just try to hide within himself. But she was looking, and when he was ready to quit, she pushed him a little bit farther. Look back on your life... How far have you come? So why, no matter how small the situation, do you think it's "okay" to give-up now???!!! You have already come so FAR! what else do you want to do in life? you ill not get anywhere by giving up, and I don't need a story to reming me of that one.
Share your sorrows AND Joy's, base opinions off of current fact from that person, nobody else, and not based off of their past either, and last but not least.. NEVER GIVE UP!!!!
Lydia S.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Amazing Grace
As I mentioned in my first post, I am reading a book, borrowed from a friend in faith, that is all about Gods Grace. It is called The Ragamuffin Gospel By Brennan Manning. I wasn't sure if I should type this, when I was 100% done with the book, but my mind is overflowing with all these differently viewed concepts, so I decided to go ahead and start it. I am only on the beginning of chapter four...
Grace - 1) Mercy; Clemency; Pardon: an act of Grace. 2) The freely given, unmerited favor and love of God
Most people with some sort of christian faith or religion, have the Grace of God all wrong. I didn't grow up in a religious house hold. Occasionally as a little girl I remember attending church on big events such as Easter, but no more. However, I was raised to believe that in order to get into heaven, or for God to love me I had to be the perfect child without sin, and I knew that, I was not. When I started attending my current church, I learned that a lot of my perceptions on religion were wrong. God sent his only begotten son to die on the cross in order to forgive the sins of the flesh that people do EVERYDAY. I accepted Jesus Christ into my life, but yet until reading this book I still didn't totally understand God's Grace.
Today, the American church "accepts grace in theory, but denies it in practice". Jesus dined with sinners and tax collectors. To dine with somebody means to become friends with them, and in His case, to forgive them of their sins. Religious people couldn't understand why he would to this, or for what purpose. All throughout the Book of Luke, Jesus dines with all kinds of sinners, and would place EVERYBODY on the same level. No matter their society ranking or wealth. God LOVES us all the same, and because of his Grace, we are all the same. "The church is not a museum for saints, but a hospital for sinners. (Morton Kelsey)" It is a place for everybody to come, remove their false coverings they place on for the rest of the world, admit they have sinned, and feel the grace of God as they are forgiven. A man who understands Grace, understands that "Once saved, Not always saved". He understands that you will never be perfect and GOD STILL LOVES YOU and you are forgiven BECAUSE OF HIS GRACE!!! Salvation is by grace through faith. Meaning that if you have faith, God has grace, and you will be saved. People need to have faith, not that he exists, but through Trusting Him.
The most famous saying I heard in church as a child was; "God loves good little children." Well geez, at that rate he would always hate me... But almost every church I have seen or participated in is living in the house of FEAR and not in the house of LOVE. They use things such as; "If you sin once today, God will never forgive you, and won't forget." instead of; "God loves you, if you sin, discuss it with him, and move on." To many people focus on what humans do (the sins) instead of what God does (the Grace). We are humans, mortal, God is amazing and all powerful. For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works lest anyone should boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9).
God gave us a mind to shape ideas and a heart to beat with love. He gave EVERYONE grace, so before you judge those around you, think.. If Jesus preferred to dine with them instead of the wealthy, obviously they realized the gift of grace and accepted it, and because they know Gods grace and love, they are ahead of myself.
I don't know if this helped anyone understand Gods grace, like the book is helping my, but I hope it does.
Lydia S.
All of the quotes in this post are from the Book, and if you want the whole concept, he writes it much better than I.
Grace - 1) Mercy; Clemency; Pardon: an act of Grace. 2) The freely given, unmerited favor and love of God
Most people with some sort of christian faith or religion, have the Grace of God all wrong. I didn't grow up in a religious house hold. Occasionally as a little girl I remember attending church on big events such as Easter, but no more. However, I was raised to believe that in order to get into heaven, or for God to love me I had to be the perfect child without sin, and I knew that, I was not. When I started attending my current church, I learned that a lot of my perceptions on religion were wrong. God sent his only begotten son to die on the cross in order to forgive the sins of the flesh that people do EVERYDAY. I accepted Jesus Christ into my life, but yet until reading this book I still didn't totally understand God's Grace.
Today, the American church "accepts grace in theory, but denies it in practice". Jesus dined with sinners and tax collectors. To dine with somebody means to become friends with them, and in His case, to forgive them of their sins. Religious people couldn't understand why he would to this, or for what purpose. All throughout the Book of Luke, Jesus dines with all kinds of sinners, and would place EVERYBODY on the same level. No matter their society ranking or wealth. God LOVES us all the same, and because of his Grace, we are all the same. "The church is not a museum for saints, but a hospital for sinners. (Morton Kelsey)" It is a place for everybody to come, remove their false coverings they place on for the rest of the world, admit they have sinned, and feel the grace of God as they are forgiven. A man who understands Grace, understands that "Once saved, Not always saved". He understands that you will never be perfect and GOD STILL LOVES YOU and you are forgiven BECAUSE OF HIS GRACE!!! Salvation is by grace through faith. Meaning that if you have faith, God has grace, and you will be saved. People need to have faith, not that he exists, but through Trusting Him.
The most famous saying I heard in church as a child was; "God loves good little children." Well geez, at that rate he would always hate me... But almost every church I have seen or participated in is living in the house of FEAR and not in the house of LOVE. They use things such as; "If you sin once today, God will never forgive you, and won't forget." instead of; "God loves you, if you sin, discuss it with him, and move on." To many people focus on what humans do (the sins) instead of what God does (the Grace). We are humans, mortal, God is amazing and all powerful. For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works lest anyone should boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9).
God gave us a mind to shape ideas and a heart to beat with love. He gave EVERYONE grace, so before you judge those around you, think.. If Jesus preferred to dine with them instead of the wealthy, obviously they realized the gift of grace and accepted it, and because they know Gods grace and love, they are ahead of myself.
I don't know if this helped anyone understand Gods grace, like the book is helping my, but I hope it does.
Lydia S.
All of the quotes in this post are from the Book, and if you want the whole concept, he writes it much better than I.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Aim Small, Miss Small
So, I Love shooting. I don't shoot to kill, but I do shoot for fun and practice. Last night I went shooting with my oldest brother and two of his friends. There is most definitely a difference in shooting preference between me and the guys. I was shooting my DiamondBack 6 shot Colt 22 Revolver and they were each shooting their own 45's. I did shoot a couple rounds off with the 45's, and don't get me wrong, I love shooting their guns, but I am and always will be particularly biased towards my DiamondBack. Sadly my Colt is having mechanical issues, (it was my dads when he was a boy, and he gave it to me when I was about nine or ten) so I didn't get to shoot as much as I would have liked
However, I'm not writing to tell you all of that... I am writing to tell you about precision. Precision; 1)the state or quality of being precise 2)accuracy; exactness. I am a precision shooter. I like to be able to hit targets roughly the size of a bottle cap. Now, I cannot actually do this because I'm out of practice and my guns not sited properly (It shoots about three inches to high), But I like to work on this goal, and hope to one day accomplish it. My brother and his friends are satisfied with hitting the target. Don't doubt them, they are good shots, but they aren't concerned about where they hit their targets.
My brothers best friend made a good point last night about precision vs. hitting, and that was; you aren't gonna be very far away from your target with a handgun. Handguns are for close combat unless forced to use it from a farther distance. I enjoy the precision because if it came to it, and I really had to shot somebody, I wouldn't wanna actually kill them. Wound them, yes, but not kill them. I say this for two reasons; 1) If some body is harming me, or threatening me, it doesn't give me the right to out right kill them 2) If they do something so bad where it would come to killing, I want to hit where I'm shooting, and not make them suffer.
Now, there will always be more to this topic (especially when it comes to killing somebody [In self- defence only of course]), but that is a topic for another time.
I will always believe that consistent precision is better than "just hitting" the target. And I mean this for more than just shooting guns. Aim Small, Miss Small is a philosophy that can be used throughout life. If you plan on reaching a goal, don't look wide for the target. Shoot as straight as you can, and if you miss at least it won't be by much.
Aim for the moon, if you miss at least you'll land among the stars!!!
Lydia S.
However, I'm not writing to tell you all of that... I am writing to tell you about precision. Precision; 1)the state or quality of being precise 2)accuracy; exactness. I am a precision shooter. I like to be able to hit targets roughly the size of a bottle cap. Now, I cannot actually do this because I'm out of practice and my guns not sited properly (It shoots about three inches to high), But I like to work on this goal, and hope to one day accomplish it. My brother and his friends are satisfied with hitting the target. Don't doubt them, they are good shots, but they aren't concerned about where they hit their targets.
My brothers best friend made a good point last night about precision vs. hitting, and that was; you aren't gonna be very far away from your target with a handgun. Handguns are for close combat unless forced to use it from a farther distance. I enjoy the precision because if it came to it, and I really had to shot somebody, I wouldn't wanna actually kill them. Wound them, yes, but not kill them. I say this for two reasons; 1) If some body is harming me, or threatening me, it doesn't give me the right to out right kill them 2) If they do something so bad where it would come to killing, I want to hit where I'm shooting, and not make them suffer.
Now, there will always be more to this topic (especially when it comes to killing somebody [In self- defence only of course]), but that is a topic for another time.
I will always believe that consistent precision is better than "just hitting" the target. And I mean this for more than just shooting guns. Aim Small, Miss Small is a philosophy that can be used throughout life. If you plan on reaching a goal, don't look wide for the target. Shoot as straight as you can, and if you miss at least it won't be by much.
Aim for the moon, if you miss at least you'll land among the stars!!!
Lydia S.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Hello Everyone
Hi,
Somehow, I doubt that this will be read by.. anyone, but I still must write it. Why I put this onto my "Bucket List" I have No idea. However, for some random reason I always thought it to be cool to be able to put my thoughts and opinions out there, and to have discussions with people all over the world about it. There's something very thrilling about the knowledge people have that can't be reached in our day to day lives. If you are reading this, I want to thank you, and please feel free to let me know your opinions =).
Now, the first thing on my mind today is this book I'm reading. A friend of faith let me borrow it, and I read about... two pages last night at 2:00 a.m. and I cannot stop wanting to read it. It's all about Grace. God's Grace. My story is an interesting one, Grace has and will always be a HUGE part of that story, and in more than one way.
I will write more later.. For now, I'm off to my nephews first birthday party. The weathers cold, but spirits are high. And for some reason, life will always be about learning to dance in a thunderstorm and wait out the rain just to see the rainbow when the first sun light is seen.
I Hope you have a wonderful Day,
Sincerely,
L.S.
Somehow, I doubt that this will be read by.. anyone, but I still must write it. Why I put this onto my "Bucket List" I have No idea. However, for some random reason I always thought it to be cool to be able to put my thoughts and opinions out there, and to have discussions with people all over the world about it. There's something very thrilling about the knowledge people have that can't be reached in our day to day lives. If you are reading this, I want to thank you, and please feel free to let me know your opinions =).
Now, the first thing on my mind today is this book I'm reading. A friend of faith let me borrow it, and I read about... two pages last night at 2:00 a.m. and I cannot stop wanting to read it. It's all about Grace. God's Grace. My story is an interesting one, Grace has and will always be a HUGE part of that story, and in more than one way.
I will write more later.. For now, I'm off to my nephews first birthday party. The weathers cold, but spirits are high. And for some reason, life will always be about learning to dance in a thunderstorm and wait out the rain just to see the rainbow when the first sun light is seen.
I Hope you have a wonderful Day,
Sincerely,
L.S.
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